Life is Great (...ish)

Generally speaking life is not too shabby, pretty good really.  I am lucky to have a lovely wife who really cannot do enough for me and we have our brilliant little girl who has really enhanced our life and our relationship.

I have an issue though, it is almost a cloud hanging over me and if I let it, I thnk it might get me down but i wont let that happen.  There is this niggling thought that wont go away that there is something missing from my life and i cannot pinpoint it, although I think it maybe lack of career.

I am really not that happy in my job, and i think if i changed it my life would hopefully feel a bit more complete.  Now dont get me wrong, I really enjoy working with a lot of the people i work with and i think if i did leave a fair few of them would remain friends but there is a lot more cons than pros as far as i can see.

Now obviously most people at this point would be thinking well get another job then, and this is certainly something i would like to do but that is proving easier said than done!

My biggest weakness and I suppose biggest fear is job interviews, and I just cannot crack them.  This frustrates me a lot because I feel i can turn my hand to most things and given the right training i could be pretty good at a lot of different things but no matter how much research i do and how hard i try, interviews seem to beat me everytime.

Of course I have had successful interviews in the past or i would never have worked but when i look back at them they were not difficult at all and certainly not what mordern day employers would consider to be a satisfactory part of the recruitment process!

A big part of the problem is I am 33 next week and I have no idea what I actaully want to be doing, i never have had really, at school i wanted to be a Dr but i was not academically up to that, and probably too lazy, then i wanted to be a police officer, that was a disastarous interview!  Me being me, was not happy to apply for Kent Police, i thought the Met would be more exciting, i filled in the form and got an interview, but it was horrible, i couldnt even give a valid answer as to why i wanted to work in London when I lived in Kent which has a very good police force of its own and it went down hill from there!

If I could decide what i wanted to do it would make the whole process easier but i just cant.  I trail through loads of jobs websites and look out for things i like the sound of but then there arises another issue, I have never successfully got a job that has been advertised, all my jobs have been speculative enquiries or word of mouthm so i wonder are the job sites a complete waste of time?

There is probably a lot more I could write on this subject but i dont want to go on too long but if anyone has any fail safe interview tips or indeed any cool jobs they want filling, give me a shout!!