Life is Great (...ish)

Generally speaking life is not too shabby, pretty good really.  I am lucky to have a lovely wife who really cannot do enough for me and we have our brilliant little girl who has really enhanced our life and our relationship.

I have an issue though, it is almost a cloud hanging over me and if I let it, I thnk it might get me down but i wont let that happen.  There is this niggling thought that wont go away that there is something missing from my life and i cannot pinpoint it, although I think it maybe lack of career.

I am really not that happy in my job, and i think if i changed it my life would hopefully feel a bit more complete.  Now dont get me wrong, I really enjoy working with a lot of the people i work with and i think if i did leave a fair few of them would remain friends but there is a lot more cons than pros as far as i can see.

Now obviously most people at this point would be thinking well get another job then, and this is certainly something i would like to do but that is proving easier said than done!

My biggest weakness and I suppose biggest fear is job interviews, and I just cannot crack them.  This frustrates me a lot because I feel i can turn my hand to most things and given the right training i could be pretty good at a lot of different things but no matter how much research i do and how hard i try, interviews seem to beat me everytime.

Of course I have had successful interviews in the past or i would never have worked but when i look back at them they were not difficult at all and certainly not what mordern day employers would consider to be a satisfactory part of the recruitment process!

A big part of the problem is I am 33 next week and I have no idea what I actaully want to be doing, i never have had really, at school i wanted to be a Dr but i was not academically up to that, and probably too lazy, then i wanted to be a police officer, that was a disastarous interview!  Me being me, was not happy to apply for Kent Police, i thought the Met would be more exciting, i filled in the form and got an interview, but it was horrible, i couldnt even give a valid answer as to why i wanted to work in London when I lived in Kent which has a very good police force of its own and it went down hill from there!

If I could decide what i wanted to do it would make the whole process easier but i just cant.  I trail through loads of jobs websites and look out for things i like the sound of but then there arises another issue, I have never successfully got a job that has been advertised, all my jobs have been speculative enquiries or word of mouthm so i wonder are the job sites a complete waste of time?

There is probably a lot more I could write on this subject but i dont want to go on too long but if anyone has any fail safe interview tips or indeed any cool jobs they want filling, give me a shout!!

Light Up Light Up!

Well, here is that all important 2nd post. I am sure Adem will be relieved to see this!

I don't really have any regular hobbies, especially now that we have an 8 month old daughter, and I hope this blog will go some way to fill this void, but I do sometimes get almost obsessed by things!

My latest obsession is an electric meter sent to me from British Gas. If I am honest I only ordered it because it was a cool looking new gadget but it is beginning to take over our daily routine!

I am forever going round the house switching off lights and unplugging chargers and making sure things are not on stand by to try and get the dial on the display to drop a few notches! I guess in a way this is a good thing as in the long run it is saving me money (although I expect pence rather than pounds) and we should of course all be doing our bit for the environment, but really it is just a bit of a game.

The other day I came in from work and the dial was reading 16.5 kwh (Kilowatt Hours, dunnno what that means!), this was well above the 10.5kwh target I had set ourselves and the dial was flashing vigorously in its on digital disapproving way!

My intention is to drop the target once we consistently stay below it to see how little electricity we actually can get away with using, in reality, I will probably unplug the meter (oh yeas it is mains powered ironically!) to plug in the slow cooker, pop the meter in the drawer and forget it ever existed!

New Blog Plost

Well, its 2010 (obviously) and I have been thinking about re-blogging for a while, having last blogged in 2006-7 in the run up to my wedding.

At this early stage I am not entirely sure what my hopes and aims are for this blog but I guess that will come over time.

It is really for me to learn more about blogging, and to try and work things out in print rather than in my head! There you go, two of my hopes have revealed themselves already!

I hope i can keep it interesting, maybe even amusing at time but i can make no promises about this!